1. Mike Egan says:

    Three plus years I have been in love with this woman. Most of what is written in this article appears too true.

    I am the Cancer man. She is a Gemini woman, a swinger and a self declared sex addict. She loves the variety of different partners but it is more than just her natural Gemini curiosity or boredom.

    She is really at least two and a half people. “Sex girl” a self declared sex addict, with an insatiable sex drive (at 73 years old) and is paired with someone who can manipulates her mind to use her addiction for his own benefit. He twist events and beliefs in her head so she often believes the opposite of what actually occurred as the truth. All this so he can use her addiction to get himself laid by someone new. He says he will give her “emotion” (as a form of barter) if she sleeps with a man who can provide a different sex partner(woman) for him, even when she is not attracted to the person she needs to sleep with to benefit his needs. The second personality is “Love girl” who truly needs emotional sustenance and needs the bliss of love in her life to feel complete. Love girl although not usually dominant is still very resilient. She was the little girl who hid away when the personality who became sex girl was dealing with the sexual abuse. I say dealing with because sex became a way of controlling her abuser. Rather than fight or protest the abuse, sex girl wanted to prove she enjoyed it even more than her abuser….thus stealing the “power” from him and proving to her abuser that he was no longer in control.

    This tended to become a life pattern for the woman over time. Her sexual enjoyment allowed her to control the men she became involved with even if just to use them and discard them. But ever in search of the ultimate orgasm was both the curse of her life as well as the holy grail of her spiritual search. Sometimes she would fake sexual pleasure just as a means of control. But love girl was always still there, and would seek out emotional nourishment however she could. When she found it and enjoyed this nourishment sex girl would want her vengeance immediately thereafter, because “Love was never good nor ever to be trusted”. “Sex girl” would immediately go on a sexual binge to prove to Love Girl and Love Girl’s emotional attachment, that love was never to be trusted and could be trumped by sex at any time. I.E. that Love Girl always remained in control.

    I once inaccurately accused her of being an emotional vampire. Inaccurately because she was not “stealing” this emotion or love from me, but I was a vehicle to give her access to the one thing that might be her salvation or release from her torment. This love was not “mine” to give or withhold. it belonged to the cosmos or to God or Christ and was in fact destined for this poor abused being who in spite of her deflections, was ever searching for her true soul. I did not fully understand her dichotomy or that her insatiable need for emotional sustenance was driven by that earlier schism to try to restore some balance.

    The third personality (I referred to perhaps unfairly as a “half”) is this woman’s conscience……she appears to have one. Her conscience is her judgement (something she denies doing) trying to understand if there is right or wrong in her own or another’s behavior (mostly her own) And she is capable of remorse. But this remorse gets perverted (no pun intended) and becomes a path to BDSM as a way of punishing herself for the wrongs she knows or feels she has done. She gets off sexually from this, perhaps as a reward for feeling she is balancing her own Karma.

    She was sexually abused in a foster home at the age of nine and ten and threatened with much worse if she would ever reveal this. Herein lay the foundation of her schizophrenia. She became “love girl” who wanted true emotional fulfillment and “sex girl” (which as a Gemini she was somewhat predisposed to be anyway….but her needs became more driven and extreme.) I feel we might be twin souls, at times she feels the same way. On the other hand she has deliberately hurt me. She is actually a medically diagnosed schizophrenic.

    But I love her still in spite of the disdain I feel sometimes and her very confused life (at least from my viewpoint). I do believe we may well be twin souls although every Oracle or Zodiacal commentary I read on Cancer men and Gemini women would indicate this is unlikely. Whether it is her ability so summon the sexual siren at will or in fact that we are two “separated at birth” Twin Souls, I know she is ever on my mind and in my heart and soul.

    1. Melissa Martinez says:

      My apologies your reply wasnt lost :)

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